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I always thought working from home would be a fun, relaxed, totally stress-free type of thing. I imagined myself waking up later than usual, taking my time in the bath, having a full breakfast, having more time to blog, reading more, having time to do my hobbies (crocheting, sewing, and journaling), and just generally living … Continue reading Working From Home, Blogging Burnout, Anxiety & Other Problems
“Caring for myself is not self-indulgence, it is self-perseveration, and that is an act of political warfare.” – Audre Lorde I love that this book pours light on how the differences in gender, class, determine what self-care is for an individual. A lot of self-care tips are usually banking on capitalism, making self care a … Continue reading 10 Things I Learned From The More or Less Definitive Guide to Self Care
Trigger warnings: mentions of depression, suicide attempt. Today I want to talk about anti-depressants and what they've done for and to me. I just realised that I don't talk about mental health enough on here for someone who's entire tagline is about mental health and books. A few years ago I started on my first … Continue reading Medicated Depression and Horrible Side Effects
Trigger warning: descriptions of anxiety attacks Anx·i·ety \ aŋ-'zī-ə-tē\ an abnormal and overwhelming sense of apprehension and fear marked by physiological signs (sweating, tension and increased pulse), by doubt concerning the reality and nature of the threat, and by self-doubt and one’s capacity to cope with it. When every day is an opportunity for anxiety … Continue reading Normal Anxiety Days VS Bad Anxiety Days
Trigger warning: discussions of suicide I’ve been waiting for four weeks to get an appointment with a psychiatrist after my last suicide attempt. If it wasn’t for the free counselling provided by NGOs I don’t know where I’d be. But USAID has been cut, NGOs are understaffed and I’ve used up all my free sessions. … Continue reading What It’s Like Being Suicidal and Poor
I have problems with leaving things half done. It feels like failure and nobody likes to fail. But there comes a time when one has to leave certain things and I'm leaving blogging for a bit. Just until things settle down in my head and I can feel like my old self again. There was … Continue reading Blog Hiatus
Content warning: discussion of selfharm scars I was doing a little spring wardrobe cleaning this week which mostly consisted of me throwing away expired medication while watching Empire. Summer is here. The days are getting hotter and longer. Something about packing away my winter coats, scarves and winter leggings and seeing my Summer clothes made … Continue reading Summer, Short-sleeves and Scars
I love writing. I’ve loved it since I was a young child. Starting this blog was a way to keep my mind busy and a space to talk about my favourite topic: books. It was supposed to be fun and easy. Words come easy to me but I hadn’t banked on how my mental illness … Continue reading To Be Vulnerably Honest…
Tell me all the things that make you feel at ease: White noise Books between my hands Pillows on my bed Playlists by strangers Ceylon tea with too much sugar Notebooks with blank, empty pages Fanfiction of lives never written Lists to bring order in my head Doing my makeup and pretending Songs about leaving … Continue reading Ease // Unsafe
Content warning: eating disorders That’s what people mean when they say they wish they were thin like me. A few days ago my sister said those words to me, like having an eating disorder is something eccentric and fun, something you can wear and remove whenever you feel like it. “I’m going to stop eating … Continue reading “I Wish I Had An Eating Disorder Like You”
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