Songs About Leaving

The idea of leaving a place fascinates me because there’s a naïve part of me that thinks I’ll be leaving myself behind. It feels like I won’t be the same person I was wrapped up in a blanket surrounded by the cream walls. Leaving a place behind means I’ll find a different Sakhile waiting for me, different and clean. Untethered by depression and the ills and aches of this body.

Suburbia – Troye Sivan

This song makes me want to get up and take a walk through my old home town but its 800km away and so much has changed, there’s a church where an empty field used to be and nobody knows my name anymore.

Ghost In The Machine – B.o.B

This one reminds me that I need to leave for my own sake, for my own sanity. As far away as I can go. I’m a ghost in this place, aimlessly drifting, waiting for something, waiting for freedom. I’m not a child any more. I can’t keep hiding. I need to leave these four walls behind but I’m terrified.

Lovely – Billie Eilish and Khalid

I hope someday I’ll make it out of here, even if it takes all night or a hundred years. This is about finding your home. Home isn’t always where you’re from, it’s where you feel safe, it’s where you can sit in the dark with a single candle on and no one will walk in to turn the TV and the lights on.

Whispers – Passenger

There should be a clear path by now. I should know by now. Isn’t that what they all say? 24 and everything isn’t what I thought it would be. It’s quiet and I can’t figure it out.

Cholocate and Cigarettes – Angus and Julia Stone

This is the first song I’ve ever associated with leaving, leaving a place behind. That’s all I’ve ever wanted, to leave it all behind but there’s a fear of new things, of new places holding me back. There’s comfort in familiar faces and old places.

Fast Car – Tracy Chapman

Is it fast enough so we can fly away? Sometimes it feels like I’ll die here, that I’ll never leave, that I’ll always be the girl waiting for something to happen that will change everything. I thought I could be someone when I was younger.

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As much as I love songs about leaving, I can never leave myself. Wherever I go, I’ll always take myself with me.

If you know any songs about leaving a place or a life, let me know in the comments. I’m always looking for more to add to my playlist.

 

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ARC Review: #FashionVictim by Amina Akhtar | Bitches Get Stitches

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Rating: ★★★★☆

Publication Date: 21 September 2018

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Look, if you’re going to write a book from the perspective of an anti-hero or villain, there’s a 90% chance that I’ll overlook all the terrible things they’ve done and cheer them on from my couch.

When I saw this book being likened to The Devil Wears Prada and Mean Girls, I expected fashion, cliques, backstabbing and I got all of that and murder.

This was so unexpected. Anya, the main character, leaves a trail of dead bodies in her quest for the coveted position of being Sarah’s best friend. Conning her way as an editor at one of the popular fashion magazines to have access to her targeted BFF, Anya’s determination knows no bounds. As morbid as it sounds, I kind of wanted her to win. Anya is clearly suffering from a mental illness; her conversations with the suspicious Dr M, vivid hallucinations and outrageous obsession with Sarah are a suggestion of this.

Working at La Vie Anya is subjected to condescension, workplace racism, belittling and constant bullying from her colleague and boss. She’s the weird Indian girl only there to fill up their diversity card but she’s got a knife up her sleeve or a pair of vintage Marc Jacobs to take down anyone who threatens her perfect plans.

This book was everything. One minute everything would be quiet and the next everything’s gone wild. Every time Anya thinks she’s managed to infiltrate Sarah’s circle she’s violently thrown out again leaving her worried and determined to get back in. Dead bodies begin piling up around her and the police begin to circle around.

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This was such a fantastic read. Amina Akhtar’s writing is so vivid and entrancing. Half the time I lowkey feared for my own life at the hands of Anya, a spectacular villain.

Trigger warnings: racism, graphic descriptions of murder

Thank you to Netgalley and Crooked Lane Books for sending me this ARC

 

 

Top 6 Favourite TV Shows

When I’m not in a reading mood, I watch things; makeup tutorials, movies and tv shows. So here’s a list of some of my favourite TV shows.

  1. How To Get Away With Murder

Viola Davis is a goddess. Her portrayal of Annelise Keating is phenomenal. She’s scary af and I would probably cower if I ever met her in person. This show is what happens when you try to cover up a murder: lies upon problems upon more murders to cover up the initial murder.

  1. Glee

Let’s pretend everything after season 4 didn’t happen. Let’s pretend Rachel didn’t get bored of the dream she’d been ranting about since the premiere and leave it all behind for a television. Let’s pretend that weird relationship between Blaine and Karofsky didn’t happen. Glee will always be a problematic fave but I met my best friend 8 years ago in the comment section of a Klaine fan page so it holds a special place in my heart.

  1. Sherlock

I’ve been a fan of Sherlock since I watched the movies starring Robert Downey Jr. In the BBC series, Sherlock is a high functioning sociopath who is a consulting detective to Scotland Yard. He annoys his “colleagues” and abhors all humans except for John Watson who chronicles their cases on his blog.Although each series contains 3 episodes, they are all so good it’s worth it.

  1. Insecure

Issa Rae has created one of the best social commentary shows on television. It’s real and doesn’t shy away from matters facing the modern African-American woman from workplace racism to online dating to open relationships. The soundtrack is amazing af. The show showcases some of the best not-so-mainstream artists.

  1. Person of Interest

I blame this show for my paranoia. Is someone watching me through my laptop camera? The CCTV at the electrical shop down the street? Tracking my phone as I go about my daily activities? When I first started watching this I wasn’t too interested in it so I skipped a few episodes and got hooked.

  1. Avatar: The Last Airbender

Not a TV show but I had to mention ATLA. This series played on days I had my Mathematics lessons after failing it in matric, so I’d be very anxious before leaving the house to sit in a room of 100+ hyper teenagers and it distracted me from my leaving-the-house anxiety.

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What are your favourite TV shows? Give me some recommendations in the comments.

 

Book Review: Want by Cindy Pon | The Earth Is Dying

Want Cindy Pon coverTitle: Want (Want #1)

Author: Cindy Pon

Genre: YA Dystopian

Rating: ★★★★☆

Want by Cindy Pon is an enigmatic look into the desolate future that awaits humanity as a result of pollution, excessive greed and the carelessness of humans. The environment has gone to shit, the pollution is covering up the skies and all that is visible is a hazy brown fog.

This is one of those books that I regret starting so late. I usually don’t read sci-fi so whenever I see something science-y in a book blurb I don’t bother with it. But this one was recommended an antidote to my Six of Crows book hangover and I loved it to death. Zhou is a mei, an orphan destined to a life of sickness and poverty. When his mentor Dr Nataraj is killed while trying to pass an environmental law that will force the rich you to look at the dilapidating situation of Taipei. Jin Corp is cashing in on the pollution and illnesses caused by it by manufacturing suits that filter the air, assess weight, communication system

The characters are all lost souls fuelled by a fierce love for the city of Taipei and an urge to fight the injustice. Arun – whose mother died trying to get a pollution law passed that could save the environment. Iris – a ghost of a girl who scales walls and never sits still. Vic – the suave, suited up dealing for a better life. Lingyi – our hacker girl, the mum and boss of the group, fiercely protective of her friends. And Zhou – haunted by the death of his mother.

They come up with a dangerous plan to bring Jin Corp to its knees, by breaking into the corporation and burning it to the ground in the hopes that the you will finally be forced to confront the reality of Taipei. Zhou infiltrates the you scene trying to get close to Daiyu, the heir to Jin Corp and ultimately gain access to the building.

Daiyu had good intentions and proved herself in the end but I just couldn’t like her. My heart was hardened against her character from the first chapter and refused to be softened. The relationship between her and Zhou felt a bit off.

The relationship between Lingyi and Iris was nice. A soft f/f relationship between two characters that are anything but soft.

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The environment is important. We’re killing it and in doing so we’re killing ourselves. We only have one earth to live in and we need to take care of it so the bleak, dystopian future of Cindy Pon’s imagination doesn’t come true.

35% of the world doesn’t have access to clean water. I know what it’s like to be without water or to turn the tap and have brown, undrinkable water pour out. I grew up in Zimbabwe when water shortages were the norm. There wasn’t a drought. There just wasn’t enough money to maintain the water system. And so many places still don’t have clean water. If there’s one thing to take away from this book is that take care of the natural resources, they’re not infinite.

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This is fiction but it really made think about what I’m doing to help the environment. Let me in the comments the different ways in which you try to environmentally-friendly.

*The sequel Ruse is being released in January 2019

Breathe,

Sakhile

Mid-Year Book Freak Out Tag

Mid-Year Book Freak Out Tag

Here’s Sakhile doing a tag she wasn’t tagged in yet again. I wanted to do a sort of catching up, 6 months post and luckily I noticed this tag going around and it seems like the perfect fit. I’m completely failing on my reading challenges but whatever, there’s still 6 months left right?

Best Book You’ve Read This Year.

Sparrow by Sarah Moon. This book made me feel seen. Continue reading “Mid-Year Book Freak Out Tag”

Book Review: Enter Title Here | Stanford Dreams At All Costs

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Rating:★★★★☆

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Reshma Kapoor is an unlikeable character, she’s rude, has no understanding of things generally unacceptable to say to people’s faces, no social skills whatsoever, no filter and is severely judgmental of her peers. But I was rooting for her the entire time. I stayed up until 1am to finish this book until her actions seemed over the top and I thought my brain was playing tricks on me and I went to bed. Continue reading “Book Review: Enter Title Here | Stanford Dreams At All Costs”

Book Reviews and the Power to Change Someone’s Book Opinions

When it comes to book reviews about books I haven’t read yet, I try to stay away from them because spoilers but sometimes a book causes so much hype I can’t help but read a couple of reviews.

Book reviews are usually meant for before you read the book:

  • you can gauge if it’s something you’d be interested in
  • you can get a basic plotline
  • a feel of the book from people who like to read the same books as you
  • content and trigger warnings

Continue reading “Book Reviews and the Power to Change Someone’s Book Opinions”

ARC Review: Bonjour Girl by Isabelle Laflèche

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Author: Isabelle Laflèche

Rating: ★★★☆☆

Release Date: August 25

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Clementine, the Chinese-French main character, is studying fashion journalism at Parsons’ School of Fashion in New York with the hope of turning her blog idea Bonjour Girl into a reality. Originally from France, Clementine finds it hard to adapt to the American way of learning, she is subject to snarky classmates and unwarranted bullying. With the help of her grandmother’s copy of How to Be a French Lady and privilege she manages to rise above and succeed. Continue reading “ARC Review: Bonjour Girl by Isabelle Laflèche”